My best friend/soldier just left home for 2 weeks at Ft. Bliss before deploying to Afghanistan for a year.
He got married in June. I believe his words were “Yeah, the deployment was a large part of the decision.”
I’ve known him for 15 years. I was here for him during all 3 deployments. (2 to Iraq in 04 and 09)
Is it selfish of me to want to be recognized that this sucks for me too?
I mean… my best friend of 15 years. We talk almost every day. I go visit him whenever he is training (Des Moines, Iowa, Boston, Mass, Seattle, Wash, and Leavenworth, KS)
If anything happens to him, I don’t get to find out. I will have to see it on the news or on Facebook or something. I’m not going to get a phone call saying he’s hurt or an Officer showing up on my door. I won’t get the phone calls home. I didn’t get to say goodbye. I didn’t get to hug him and wish him well. I don’t get to go to the going away parties or go through any of the ceremonies before the unit leaves. I am just the friend. If he comes home on leave, it is most likely that I won’t even get to talk to him. (His wife hates me… can’t imagine why)
I know I shouldn’t tell him anything that’s sad or bad. I am not the one leaving my friends and family and putting myself in danger for our country. He doesn’t need to know the bad things because there isn’t anything he can do about them and why make him worry on top of everything. I get that. But is it okay to want him to know that it really does effect me too - but because I’m essentially a nobody, it doesn’t matter?
I love him. I hate that I’m left out no matter what.
I don’t know what to do.
He is the most frustrating, beautiful man EVER! I want to kiss him and hit him at the same time.
I’m here. I’m with ‘my’ soldier for the week. I arrived yesterday and it was a really good night. (and we didn’t even have sex!)
You guys… i fucking love him! He’s beautiful and amazing and soft and sweet and perfect. <3
I’ve got some surprises for him this week. Things he doesn’t know about. I love that I can surprise him.
wish me luck.
I’m leaving at 0200 on Monday morning, ladies and gentlemen. 10 days with my soldier.
5 Days, 13 hours, 11 minutes.